week 32 - Vice of Advice

Today was all about naps. I took 3 of them for about an hour each. Michael had a head cold last week and then I felt a touch of it yesterday and today. I'm sitting in my new favorite chair. I've been through every piece of furniture in the house and have now become re-acquainted with my old recliner. Needless to say when I hit the 7 month mark I can't sleep or find anything comfortable to do with my body. I don't want to sit, or lay down, or stand. This recliner was not comfortable to me a month ago - but now it is just right! Like Goldie Locks after the couch is too soft, and the dining room chair too hard---this one is just right to recline at that perfect angle to sooth my achy, soar, feels like their bruised ribs of mine.

As I focus on the baby and preparedness for my natural water birth I am continuing to put the negative words of others out of my mind. It is funny how the only thing that people can think to say about having a baby is all of the superficial unpleasant things that do tend to come along with it. So I get warnings about how I will never get to have any sleep again, or how I better hope I have good gag reflux for changing diapers. When they know I'm going to breast feed it is always met with a sarcastic "good luck" and how miserable their experience was. When they hear I am having a natural birth I am laughed at for I have no idea what I am getting into because this is my first baby and that I'll be sorry! If it's not the women sharing their misery it's the men sharing the terrible experience of their wives. It is truly amazing how not once has any parent shared how beautiful it is to hold a bundle of joy that is your new baby and all the love it brings. yes, I am fully aware of all the above and the need to have plenty of Kotex on hand for several weeks after delivery! (as I was told of yet another pleasant thing to "look forward" to).

So, I could focus on all that and selfishly really start resenting this child already for the "big" inconvenience he is going to cause me.......or.....I can focus on the love he will bring and the "pain" of natural childbirth or from breastfeeding is all for him....not for me! It is the least I can do for him!